005th Meatbun ☼ Voice / Drawings?

[the_brightest_sun]

[So guess which kid woke up veeeery early in the morning due nature's call... Only to freak out about the recent experiment. Or rather than freak out, get terrified by it. Guess who gets out of Ukyo's apartment as fast and silently as possible -and for a monkey that's easy- to run away to the forest.

Later in the day, much later, in the early afternoon, after most of the village has gotten out of their "wtf" and such reactions... People flipping pages in the journals may come across an entry with someone doodling in there. They are pretty simple drawings, it's not as if Goku has his color pencils with him or whatever.

There's a girl, with long hair and a bow in the head, she holds what could be from a paint brush to a cooking tool. In fact for some it may be recognizable if they have visited a certain okonomiyaki stall. Her other hand holds the hand of a child, with messy hair and what seems like a hairband or a crown on his head, who looks very, very, happy. And he is holding the hand of a boy, who also has a hairband on his shorter hair and who has lots of interrogations above his head as if he's not sure where he is. On the girl's other side there's another man, older and taller and accompanied by a black dog. The drawing also has a happy sun and happy clouds and happy trees and everyone looks happy there.

There's a record accompanying this piece of art, but it has nothing of interest unless you like to listen to a child crying and sobbing. At any rate, the beautiful drawing is soon destroyed by lots of lines striking it almost angrily. At this point there's a voice being recorded but it sounds far, as if not talking to the journal.]

You guys are lucky... Whenever you get out of there you will have a mom and a dad... I don't have those...

I had them but it was a lie... I also had a grandad...

[Moar drawings, this time it's different though yet a bit similar, there are three "adults" but they are different from before, they are all boys, one has what one could assume is light hair and dresses like a girl and has a dot in the forehead. Another has short dark hair and seems to be smoking -or throwing smoke from his mouth- and holds what is a bottle that has "wine" scribbled on it messily because he almost ran out of space on the bottle. There's another one, with short hair and a monocle and with a kind of dragon or bird on his shoulder. The kid from before he here too, the only one unchanged and still looking happy. Everyone looks happy here.

It gets covered in strikes soon enough as well.]

I want my family back... Both of them.

[And that's all there's to see and hear. Yeah, here's one of the people who's taking this change sadly.]

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[eternallysinned.livejournal.com]

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't want to go back home. He doesn't know where's his home. He just knows that back at Heaven's things weren't as great as here but he had a "family" but it's not complete anymore. And that just yesterday he was in this great place and had a family... But he doesn't anymore. Both families were "fake", both aren't with him anymore.

Why can't he have a family? What is it that he has done that's so wrong that means he can't have a mama or a papa like the other kids?

Hearing Hakkai only makes him shift but he doesn't move or call back. He's not here, Hakkai. Ignore the suspicious leaves falling from the top of a tree, they haven't fell because a monkey shifted in his hideout among the branches. Ignore the gleam of gold among the leaves at the top of the tree, it's not a golden crown attached to a monkey.]

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[eternallysinned.livejournal.com]

Goku, please come out.

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[Still up here, hiding. But he answers in a pouting and sad voice.]

No...

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[eternallysinned.livejournal.com]

You can't expect to solve your problems if you run away from them. I'm sure your friends are concerned for you. I'm worried myself.

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[ombra_lira]

[Sheik's had a long day already, but when he does take the time to check the journals and comes across this, he can't help but feel he should offer something to console the boy. He feels about as let down about the whole thing as the kid sounds.]

Goku? [Pause. He's not sure he should attempt to help. He hardly knows the kid, and is barely in better shape himself. He shakes his head to himself, then continues.] It was a cruel joke. It hurts to be given something, only to have it taken away. It was wrong of the Malnosso to tamper with something so precious.

[Another pause. How does he continue...?]

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

Jokes are supposed to be funny...

[Sobs.]

It was fun but it's not now... I don't like it being a lie.

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[ombra_lira]

...Perhaps it does not have to be a lie. [Those feelings were as real as anything else he'd felt about others.]

It is not wrong to still care, or want them to care for you.

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

But everyone is upset because they didn't like it. Aren't they?

Is it really okay if I still want it back?

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[stringless-doll.livejournal.com]

[Nataku is normally an early riser, but sometime after midnight he dashed into the forest and he hasn't returned to the village since. He spent most of the night by the stream where he stopped with Rokuta over a week before. It's his last pleasant memory before... Before all the new ones.

He hasn't looked at the journals at all, or slept, or eaten anything. He just feels tired and empty, and he wishes he could forget how it felt to have a family because all of the carefully constructed lies he's told himself to get by just don't hold up against what he knows now.

After sunrise he leaves the riverbank to get lost in the forest, wandering aimlessly. Eventually, he hears the sobbing, and the voice that accompanies it. He moves without thought, but with purpose.] Goku?

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[Hearing his name makes him shift, trying to hide more for a second, until he realizes who is calling for him.]

Nataku...

[Calling from the top of a tree, hidden among branches and leaves, Goku leans forward a bit trying to make himself seen for his friend.]

I'm up here. Come?

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[stringless-doll.livejournal.com]

[He can hear the shifting, and he looks up. There's a glint of gold in the treetops, and he hesitates only long enough for the invitation before he's scrambling up the tree after his friend.

Once he's on the same branch, he pulls Goku into a desperate hug. This is real. What he remembers about Goku isn't something the Malnosso made up so they could have fun.]

...I heard you crying.

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[Goku returns the hug tightly.]

It hurts. Everyone is upset and angry, but I'm just sad because it's over now... I want it back.

[Kind of, he doesn't want to not know Konzen or Ken-niichan like during those days, he wants both families, he's selfish.]

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[cutefiancee.livejournal.com]

[Ukyo only happens to find this by chance, as she's pensively flipping the pages and trying not to think about the past week. Of all the cruel things- she was pretty and cherished... loved. Not just one girl in a string hopelessly engaged to her friend who wouldn't just choose. She had a family and a happy one.

She pauses, spotting the picture and how it's been angrily scribbled on, then the rest of the message. It breaks her heart a little, no a whole lot.]

Goku? You wanna talk, sugar?

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[It's ma- no, it's not mama, it's not family. It was all fake and he wasn't a wanted child or anything. He wasn't in the world because someone had wanted him to be, he's just someone who woke up in a mountain, all alone and was brought to Heavens and put under Konzen's care... He hadn't ever stopped to think about that except now but... Konzen and the others, they hadn't wanted him there, right? No one had asked for him to exist or anything.]

I'm sorry...

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[cutefiancee.livejournal.com]

For what?

[Ukyo's a softie, for all that she beat Ryoga within an inch of his life when she woke up this morning, and she really just wants to hug this kid.]

Where are you at?

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[For what?]

For what I did wrong, it was wrong that I was your son, right? I'm sorry.

[As if he had any control over that. He's... Not going to answer to where he is yet, he is hidden for a reason, if he wanted to be found he wouldn't bother to hide.]

But... I liked it. Even if it was wrong, I really liked learning martial arts cooking and making okonomiyaki with you and helping you... I liked being your son, even if it's wrong.

[Should he apologize for that too? But he doesn't want to. He doesn't want to think that it's wrong that he liked or likes it.]

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[shrouded-reaper.livejournal.com]

[Shadow is unsure what to say, if anything. He's even worse with emotions than his counterpart, and just as bad with kids. Since he'd never raised his. They just confuse him. But... it's not like it was such a bad thing. He'd had something he'd turned away from long ago. And doesn't know what to think about it.]

I'm not that old.

[The only think he can think to say to start things.]

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[Families confuse Goku. He only really learned about the term and such upon arriving to Luceti. Only now he has come to understand that Konzen and the others are his family, not just his friends, or at least he wants them to be... But they aren't, no one is his family. He doesn't get it.]

I don't get it... I don't understand ages, they don't make any sense.

[No, really, they don't, for him at least. So he has no idea what you mean by "I'm not that old".]

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[shrouded-reaper.livejournal.com]

Not old enough to be your grandfather.

[His father, sure... Shadow isn't too sure what he means by it not making sense, but he figures he'd clarify somewhat anyway.]

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

Aaah. Is there a set age to be a grandfather?

I can't have a grandfather anyway, I don't have a mama or a papa.

[He would love to, specially after tasting how it's like for ten days but...]

It was still fun, spending time with you and Interceptor and all. I liked it a lot.

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[lost-pig-boy.livejournal.com]

Ah - Goku. Are you okay?

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[Crying children are always okay. Fortunately he's not the type to lie even if he wants to...]

It hurts a lot... It's not fair.

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[lost-pig-boy.livejournal.com]

I don't why they did that, but I'm not blaming you.




Don't be sad. We can still be friends?

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[justonename.livejournal.com]

[There's a humming sound a mix of agreement and a sob. They can still be friends, of course, but still...]

I miss it already.